Hey everyone I know I haven’t updated you all on my first two months of The World Race. There is so much that I could talk to you about. I have been learning and experiencing about who God is making me to be and the spiritual side of my faith. There’s quite a bit to catch you up on so get out a blanket, get cozy on a couch and grab some popcorn if you get hungry.
Community
Let’s get started then. I first arrived and I wasn’t really nervous but also not overly excited, I was more just going with the flow which is normally my motto. But this started to seem very different, from the first day everyone is thrown together into a community where there is vulnerability about your past and you are growing more of a faith based relationship. This type of relationship has been harder for me because I am more familiar with giving the basic, generic answers. From my personal experiences there is a difference between a relationship where God is at the center and a relationship where He is not.
Struggles Going into Camp
If you don’t know, some of my big insecurities are being short and not being smart. I constantly told myself that I was small and I am stupid compared to everyone else, so I acted out in class and did not try in school. So coming into this I knew telling myself these lies was hurtful to myself. In the first two weeks I really wanting to get rid of the feeling I get when I think of myself that way and to forget about my insecurities that I had been carrying through out my middle school and high school years. One day we were in a session, which is basically where we are learning more about where we can grow with God and how to accept and walk with the Holy Spirit. This specific session was about forgiveness, and if you don’t know there are 4 different kinds of forgiveness. During the session I noticed I had built a foundation around past experiences that hurt me with my guilt, shame, and self worth, so I felt convicted and wanted to be free from the lies.
Now we are going to take a little break, we just talked about the first 3 weeks in that paragraph so we are going to stand up and shake them legs out and get ready to keep on reading.
Going straight back to where we ended, I wanted to get rid of these lies, so I decided to tell my leaders about my struggles. They mentioned something called inner healing. I was definitely a bit nervous about what I just walked myself into and I was telling myself that I shouldn’t do it. But as you could guess I did the inner healing process. After this process I felt that my mind was clear and I just felt lighter and happier. The next few weeks went by and I realized I wasn’t focusing on God. I discerned this when me and my squad came back from our domestic ministry in Mississippi. I noticed that because I was free from all my struggles I felt way better, but in turn I wasn’t as focused on God. When I had recognized this, we were less than a week out from leaving for Malaysia.
Questions / Prayer
If you have any questions about the 4 forgivenesses or what the inner healing process involves, I would love to text or call if you have any questions.
If you would like to pray for me and my team, these are some prayer requests. Pray for me to intercede for others and be more bold about praying in public. Also be praying that I will be in the word of God more and to know when to relax and say no to things and when to say yes and give whoever my all.
