Wow guys!! I AM SO IN AWE OF THE LORD!!!
Last Tuesday (10 days ago) I was pressure washing the parts of sole AC units we were cleaning while at Young Life camp for stateside ministry. I felt a really bad sharp pain in my eye + told the girl I was working with that my eye hurt really bad + I needed to go take my contacts out. From that day until Saturday, my eye was in pretty bad pain constantly + felt like I had something in my eye. I had flushed my eye multiple times + so I knew something was in it, but I was struggling with pain. I hadn’t told anyone but one of the leaders saw me Saturday morning flushing my eye out in the sink + told me she thought I should go to the doctor since it had been a while and it still was hurting me.
Honestly, God has been revealing some pride in my life, + I REALLY didn’t want to go to the doctor. I felt like it probably wasn’t worth going + I’m not one to run to doctors when something happens. Since there was an EMT at the camp, we had him look at it + he said I had a scratch in my eye but it should have been gone in 1-3 days, so since it was still there, it was likely more serious, + he said he thought I should go to urgent care. Honestly, I was really annoyed by this. I was STRUGGLING. I cried because I really didn’t want to have to go + didn’t want there to be something wrong.
I went to urgent care + the doctor looked at my eye + found a scratch on my cornea that was almost the size of my pupil. She gave me some shots + stuff in my eye + prescribed me some cream to put into my eye at night. Much to my displeasure, she also told me I needed to wear an eye patch for a week. God really humbled me with that one. I was feeling pretty discouraged + I kept running into things + tripping over stuff because I couldn’t see them. Like no joke, walked straight into a tree because I didn’t see it.
I was feeling pretty discouraged + started feeling pretty scared because when I would take off my eye patch at night, I couldn’t see out of my eye. I wasn’t blind, but it looked like how my vision is without glasses – very blurry + fuzzy + I couldn’t read or see much of anything.
Three days later, I went to an eye doctor because my eye should have been better by then, but I was having more pain + loss of eyesight + sensitivity to light. This was one of the scariest appointments of my life. When they covered my left eye I couldn’t read ANYTHING. They made the letters as big as they could + I had zero clue what they were. My eye also wasn’t dilating normally, so the doctor was concerned about that. He said the scratch was infected, so he prescribed me some pills to take + also some eye drops to use. He said it should get better soon + GOOD NEWS – I didn’t need to wear an eye patch anymore.
then, at the beginning of this week I had two bites show up on my leg that I thought were bed bugs at first (a couple people had gotten bed bugs from the camp) but within three days it became pretty clear they weren’t. They were honestly really gross + got bad enough that I had to go to urgent care AGAIN for them (turned out to be spider bites), where I got a shot + another prescription to take.
at this point, I was so discouraged. I felt so incredibly defeated + broken down + worn out. This type of stuff doesn’t typically happen to me + I had these awful sores on my legs from spiders (my biggest fear) + I couldn’t see out of my right eye. I really struggled with feeling like I couldn’t do this + really was struggling to trust God. Also, I was pretty mad. I was over all the stupid stuff that was going on. I called my mom + my boyfriend + they both prayed over me + spoke some very much needed words of encouragement + built me up emotionally + mentally + spiritually. I decided that whatever was going on was in Gods hands, + I wasn’t going to let it affect me to the best of my ability.
Okay, so fast forward a while to today. I had another eye appointment this afternoon because the pain in my eye had improved, but I still couldn’t see anything. I was struggling to feel the peace of the Lord + really was in need of His comfort + His peace that transcends UNDERSTANDING.
My team + I led worship this morning+ it turned into a very refreshing + comforting time of sitting in the Lord’s presence + feeling His peace. I felt so incredibly at peace walking out of the room + felt so encouraged + refreshed. (Reminded of psalms 23- he restores my SOUL)
So then my eye appointment- my vision hadn’t improved, so I was prescribed a steroid. three hours after he called in my prescription, we went to pick it up + it wasn’t ready (it was supposed to be ready within 30 minutes of my appointment). Since we were short on time + couldn’t wait, we said we’d come back tomorrow + get it then.
i had the slightest little feeling of “what if God wants to heal my eye?”, but I didn’t really think much of it. Tonight was revival/worship night + I kept having little feelings that God wanted to heal me, but I wasn’t going to do anything about it.
During worship, they stopped singing + one of the leaders asked everyone to pray for healing over the sickness + injuries in the room. Once again, I felt like God wanted to heal me, but I didn’t want to ask people to pray over me (also I’ve struggled to believe a lot of stories about healing before because it’s hard to believe what you don’t understand- + I was scared that God wouldn’t heal me). Well, not to worry, a TON of people gathered around me + laid hands on me. They prayed over me probably for about 5 -10 minutes + anointed me with oil, + I really felt like God was going to heal me + I fully believed in His power to heal. I know that God is the same God yesterday, today, + forever, + the same God who did miracles in the Bible is walking with us today. I completely believed God healed me, but I was too scared to open my eyes to see if He really did. One of the team leaders was behind me + he asked how my vision was + I opened my eyes + for a second couldn’t see anything because of the tears in my eyes, but I wiped away my tears + you guys!!! I COULD SEE. I started bawling + started just saying over + over again that i could see. It had literally been 10 days + just a few hours before, I had been at the doctor where he confirmed I had pretty much no vision in my right eye.
I was so shocked that I couldn’t believe it + I kept (+ still am) covering my left eye to see if I can REALLY see out of my right eye. + yall I can. I can completely see. There is no more pain in my eye + I can 100% see clearly with both eyes. God is SO SO GOOD.
im 100% still in shock over this. I can really see guys. Like, I couldn’t see + God healed me!!! Praise God. I am so in awe of the Lord. He is so so faithful. I don’t understand at ALL! I don’t understand how I couldn’t see just a few hours ago + now I’m completely able to see + there’s no more pain! God is so beyond my understanding!! Wow Jesus!! Thanks God! I feel so encouraged by the Lord. God is so kind. I’m so thankful He allowed me to see tonight + reminded me of His love + care for me! Praise God!
