This past month has been a hard one for me. I’ve experienced more anxiety attacks and waves of depression than usual, and at times it has felt overwhelming. These moments often make me question myself: am I strong enough, steady enough, or even “qualified” to step into the things God is calling me to?
Yet God has been reminding me of something important. My weaknesses do not surprise Him. He already knows them, and they do not stop His plans. In Scripture, we see God using people who felt inadequate, such as Moses, Gideon, and even Paul, and making His strength known through their weakness.
That truth is shaping the way I think about my upcoming World Race Gap Year. I have wondered, “Do I really have what it takes?” I know this journey will stretch me in ways I cannot even imagine yet. If I only focus on my abilities, I get stuck in fear. But the good news is that I don’t have to depend on myself. God is the one who called me, and He is the one who will sustain me.
Even in the middle of anxiety and heaviness, I am learning to lean on Him more deeply. My weakness has become the place where He shows His power. As Paul writes in 2 Corinthians 12:9, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” That truth gives me confidence, not in myself, but in the God who promises to be faithful.
I also believe these hard seasons are preparing me for the future. Even if I cannot always see it, or remember it in the middle of struggle, He is teaching me to depend on Him more fully. I trust He is shaping me for the people and places I will encounter on this journey and beyond.
As I prepare for the World Race, I would be so grateful for your continued support and prayers. Please pray that I will keep turning to God in moments of weakness, that I will remember His promises when I am tempted to doubt, and that He will keep preparing my heart for this calling.
Thank you for walking with me in this season. Your encouragement and prayers remind me that I am not walking alone. I know God will come through, not just for me, but also through me, as I go where He leads.
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