Time really does fly! We are in month 4 of the race and I want to take a moment to look back on all the Lord did in Cambodia.
The love that I felt in Cambodia from not only the Lord, but from the people, was so beautiful! These people had been through so much and seeing them smile and love one another and live such full lives really showed me how beautiful the Lord’s heart is. These people were so open to hearing about the Lord and made us feel comfortable and welcome ALWAYS. Throughout the weeks that we were teaching, we were able to build relationships with so many of the students and staff. Many of the teachers had a relationship with the Lord, so we would often bring our Bibles into class with us and sit with our teachers and pour into them. We even had the opportunity to have a worship night with the staff at the school. We worshiped, prayed over classrooms, prayed over each other, and ate together! The way that we can have fellowship and community with people who don’t even speak our own language is so amazing! I have to admit, the thought of leaving the U.S and going to a new country, ESPECIALLY Cambodia, made me really nervous. I was afraid that my anxiety and worry about not being in control of situations would hinder my relationship with the Lord and my team. (The Lord really likes to prove us wrong by the way). I had never felt so much peace in knowing that my life wasn’t in my hands, but the Lord’s! Being there really taught me how to trust Him and cast ALL of my worries onto Him. I really took the time I had in Cambodia to step into boldness. Sharing the Gospel to classrooms full of kids who didn’t know the Lord when He told me to and praying over strangers on the street was an absolutely terrifying thought. Whenever I felt the Lord tugging on my heart to do something out of my comfort zone, like leading a worship night or talking to strangers about my faith, it was hard for me to put aside my worries and anxieties and fully step into what He was calling me to do. I had to remember that the Lord wasn’t telling me that I wasn’t allowed to be afraid, but He was telling me to OBEY and push through fear and do what He was calling me to do for HIS glory. Being bold is being SELFLESS. I heard Him ask me, “will you be able to speak up for me when it matters the most?” That hit me HARD. I spent a lot of time asking the Lord to take away those thoughts of “am I good enough?” or “why me? why can’t someone else do it?” or “what if I mess it up?” I took every morning and extra time that I had to spend time with Him and quiet my own thoughts. I wanted my heart to be so aligned with His that I would be able to recognize when He was telling me to step into boldness and do it without a second thought. Cambodia was my opportunity to grow in my faith, apply what the Lord was teaching me, and pour out to those around me. Seek and you shall find. Ask and you shall receive.
