Week one of training camp is officially complete, and I am so full of awe and admiration of the Lord. In this short few days I have seen more prayers answered than ever before and have seen God’s love and grace poured out in tangible ways. It’s incredible to think how the Lord’s presence has been more evident than I have ever experienced before; and we’re only in training. I’m so full of excitement and expectant of all that the Lord will do as we continue this journey. My favorite part of training so far has been the worship. I always felt like I connected with God the best when I was worshipping, but this has been unlike anything I’ve ever experienced. The encounters I have had with the Lord through worship this week have shaped my heart and my eyes to be completely and utterly fixated on Him. It has brought revelation upon revelation of who God is and the personal relationship I have with Him. Day four, in worship, we ended by singing Jesus’ name repeatedly. We sung it over, over, and over again because even His name has power that we cant begin to imagine. As we sung, the (amazing) worship director, Julia, was listing some of the things Jesus and the power of His name can defeat. “Your name can heal sickness.” “Your name can heal anxiety” “your name has power of mental illness.” Since that night, I haven’t felt the constant weight of anxiety that typically sits on my shoulders. I haven’t felt the heaviness of depression. I haven’t felt an ounce of fear. Coming into that session and walking out feeling absolutely free, is something I find hard to put into words and describe. It was that day I realized what it truly means to surrender yourself to the Lord and to trust Him completely without reserve. I am confident that I will feel seasons of fear or sadness, seasons of hurt or waiting, but now, I’m also sure that I am safe. I am held. I am healed. It’s hard to explain the encounter I had because it’s not a feeling, but a knowing. A deep, soulful knowing of who God is. It’s not surface level but deep within me and completely fulfilling. I am so full of gratitude and feel so renewed. All I can say is thank you, Jesus.
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